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“What's all the noise about?” Chu Feng asked, obviously displeased. Chu Feng was definitely a school grass at school, but this school grass' reputation wasn't really good, only handsome. If you insist on filling two more, he was probably very good at fighting and playing basketball.
When Gui Heng saw him coming, he smiled and said, “It's okay. They saw him as not pleasing to the eye, so they just taught him a lesson.” With a kind of disapproving attitude, he was like saying that he had eaten rice porridge today.
Chu Feng glanced at the boy who was being pressed to the ground by several people. It wasn't someone else but Rong Xun. At this time, Rong Xun’s face has been rubbed with a few gray marks, the corners of his mouth are also purple, his forehead was also bruised, his shirt torn apart, and the buttons had long since disappeared, revealing pale white body and slender collarbone. Even his trousers weren't spared and they were cut so badly that they weren't much different from wearing or not wearing.
Rong Xun's eyes were red but he didn't cry, just clutching an unbuttoned shirt and was silent.
Gui Heng touched Chu Feng with his elbow, raised his chin, and said with a smile, “Have you heard about this kid? He's actually a gay.”
Several boys on the side also laughed and said, “Brother Feng, what do you think of this kid? He actually likes men, so disgusting.”
“He doesn't think of himself as a girl, right? Say, is this kid wearing women's clothing at home?”
“My girlfriend also said that he's good-looking. What's so good-looking about a man being beautiful and delicate? Isn't it a man handsome and tall like me better?”8
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Chu Feng was even more annoyed by their noise. The original anger in his heart hadn't found a place to vent. When he saw the embarrassed Rong Xun, he felt even more irritable and his face was almost dripping with gloom.
One of the boys walked up to Chu Feng with a smirk on his face, glanced at Rong Xun's direction, lowered his voice and said, “Brother Feng, I heard that it's very exciting to do it with men.”
Gui Heng stood beside Chu Feng and heard it too. He smiled and pushed the other person, and said, “Move aside, what are you talking about?” In fact, at their age, most of them had been addicted to talking about this kind of thing.
Because of his family environment, Chu Feng often went abroad to play and he knew more about this than his friends. He suddenly looked at Rong Xun, Chu Feng unexpectedly gave birth to an evil fire9.
Seeing that Chu Feng's face became darker, Gui Heng felt that the fire of Chu Feng's quarrel with his father hadn't subsided. Chu Feng was looking for a place to vent. Gui Heng didn't want to hit the gun10 at this time, so he called a few people, “Okay, let's go. Later, this kid will be walking around in a little bit, be careful of being infected.”
Several people laughed mockingly and didn't stay longer. After greeting Chu Feng, they left with Gui Heng first, as if nothing had happened.
The stairwell was quiet, leaving only Chu Feng and Rong Xun. Rong Xun sat up slowly, his movements were very slow, he seemed to be hurt and he lowered his head without looking at Chu Feng.
Chu Feng looked at Rong Xun, whose clothes had been broken to the point that he couldn't get out and the evil fire in his heart seemed to be burning more and more. Thinking of the quarrel between himself and his father and there hadn’t been a good thing recently, his irritability just broke out. He just wanted to find a way to vent his feelings of depression and dissatisfaction, so he reached out to Rong Xun in a ghastly manner……
Recalling that period of time, Rong Xun's crying seemed to clearly appear in his ears, even if it hadn't been mentioned for many years, it seemed like yesterday. Rong Xun didn't cry when he was beaten and humiliated by others, but he cried when he entered.
Until now, Chu Feng didn't know why he was strong against Rong Xun at the time but he knew very well that it was definitely not love, even if Rong Xun in messy clothes was indeed very attractive. His sanity collapsed and when came back to his senses, it was already after venting. He also ignored Rong Xun, he didn't even take a second look, he arranged his clothes and left.
Since then, Chu Feng didn't see Rong Xun again. Some people say that Rong Xun had dropped out of school, and some say that Rong Xun had gone abroad…In short, Rong Xun just disappeared. Chu Feng didn't pay much attention either. To him, Rong Xun was no different from the classmates he had bullied before and there was nothing to be guilty of. Maybe at the beginning he would still think of such a person but after a long time, he gradually forgot.
Chu Rou cried so much that she had lost her strength. When she managed to calm down, she stood up from the sofa then she took out four thick notebooks from her carry-on bag and placed them neatly on the coffee table. With a thick nasal voice, she said, “This is Rong Xun's relic. You are the least qualified to take it, but… also the only one who can take it.”
Chu Feng's numb body regained some consciousness and turned to look at the notebook on the coffee table. The sides of the two notebooks have turned yellow over time.
“Chu Feng, I won't forgive you, never…” After speaking, Chu Rou picked up her bag and left with steps full of emptiness11.
After standing in place for a long time, Chu Feng sat on the sofa and began to look through the books.
This was a handwritten novel. The person who wrote it was Rong Xun, and the protagonists of the story were also him and Rong Xun. It was a very simple love story, there were not many twists and turns but the love was very real, the delicate writing seemed to have inexhaustible feelings. In the novel, Rong Xun didn't encounter campus bullying but just drew, loved, described and managed their life and love according to the original trajectory.
In the story, he and Rong Xun began to associate in high school, went through university together, and stepped into society… Rong Xun was an author who lived on writing while he was not a movie emperor, just an ordinary office worker. The lives of the two were very ordinary but like a cake exuding a sweet smell, soaked with sweetness everywhere.
Although Chu Feng in the article took two completely different paths from Chu Feng in reality, Chu Feng knew that the person in the article was him, regardless of his appearance, personality, preferences, habits…
In places he wasn't even aware, Rong Xun actually knew him so well.
When Chu Feng finished reading the books, the sky was already completely dark.
Through these words, he could clearly feel Rong Xun’s feelings for him. It was so strong and humble that it was sad and heartbreaking… Some people say that words could only express one-tenth of the emotions because many feelings could not be expressed in words. They could only be hidden in the bottom of the author's heart.
At the end of the last book, there was a postscript—written by Rong Xun.
He is the last person I should not love in my life but love is not always my own account. I met him at the best age but got the saddest result. My depression is not entirely due to what he did to me, it was just a fuse.
I deceived myself and wrote these things. Originally, I wanted to give myself a motivation to live but the happier the love in the novel, the more severe the real sadness, so it didn't cure me, it just put me in a dream.
I promised Chu Rou, as long as she doesn't tell him about me, I will try to live. But this time, I am afraid I will break my promise. I am too tired to live. It seems that I am soaked in the potion called "negativity" everyday, which has been soaked deep in my bones. Chu Rou is a good girl. I thank her for visiting me often but I can't love her.
Goodbye, Chu Feng. I don't think you will ever know that there is a person who has been hurt by you and will not get rid of his love for you even if he died.
At some point, Chu Feng was already in tears and when he reacted, the tears had dripped onto the notebook, and a dot appeared.
Chu Rou didn't call him wrong; he was a scumbag and that ruined Rong Xun's life. He also understood why Rong Xun would cry so miserably at that time. It was one thing to be happy with the person he liked, but it was another thing to be raped by the person he had a crush on and the latter would make someone collapse.
Rong Xun's feelings for him moved him but he never had the opportunity to make up for it.
When he opened his eyes again, it was obviously not his home anymore. Chu Feng was taken aback for a moment and suddenly sat up, the remote and familiar environment truly appeared in front of him—this was the high school dormitory where he lived for three years.
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hu Feng's mind was a little confused for a while and he hit the wall with a punch. The coldness and pain let him know that he was not dreaming—he was reborn and he was back in high school!
The author has something to say:
A new article has been opened. Let everyone wait for a long time.
First, let's ask for a wave of collections and messages.
In this article, I hope I can maintain a relaxed and casual codeword state, and share a delicate and heart-warming relationship with you.
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Chu Feng: ...[Silently raised a sign that said "I'm attacking!"]
Footnotes:
Chu Rou - According to what I found, her name means soft, flexible, supple or yielding.
Rong Xun - I searched it, 容洵 (Róng Xún),
drenched - Originally, it says damp or moist but I replaced it.
bad boy - It translates as demon king but that doesn't make sense for everyone, so...
eighth-grade syndrome - typically used to describe early teens who have grandiose delusions, who desperately want to stand out, and who have convinced themselves that they have hidden knowledge or secret powers.
delicate - maybe the feminine and beautiful type of men?
walked up three steps in two steps - rushing
Isn't a man handsome and tall like me better? - It's "Is a tall man like me handsome?" on MTL.
evil fire - bad thoughts
hit the gun - provoke someone
emptiness - it says vain but I don't know how to change it.
I am just moving the chapters. The revised chapters 2-8 will be posted asap. It will divided into two parts. You can check it in TOC after it was posted.
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