In his twenties, Shen Cheng succeeded in
starting a business and became a financial upstart. The scale of the company
was expanding rapidly. He had vision, skill, and courage. These things may be
out of reach for many people, including Shen Cheng, and many people thought
that it is very rare for him to achieve such achievements at such a young age,
and it would certainly get very difficult.
However, Shen Cheng did not think it was
such a difficult thing. The business world had procedures and calculations that
were very complicated to ordinary people. But to Shen Cheng's cognition, they
can be solved step by step.
If there was one thing that he found
difficult, it was probably his wife, Jian Shiwu.
He and his wife do not get along very well.
Since the marriage, he had been busy with work, but he did not forget to fulfil
the responsibilities of a husband, whether from the financial or from not
restricting Jian Shiwu. He had not once argued with Jian Shiwu, even if there
are really things are not done properly, he would only point them out properly,
and will not make things difficult for his wife.
Shen Cheng even felt that he actually
spoiled his wife very much.
For example, when Jian Shiwu made a mess in
the kitchen in order to cook, and also burned his hand, he was calm and
sensible: "You are not fit to cook, don't do it in the future."
When his wife went to the mall and bought
clothes for him in the wrong size, he would be very considerate and say,
"You can just buy for yourself, I can buy my own clothes."
When Jian Shiwu called him on New Year's
Day to say that he wanted to celebrate, he also knew that he had to show his
appreciation for the holidays and that he would have to give red packets:
"I transferred a sum of money to you, happy holidays."
So, Shen Cheng felt that he had handled
everything quite well, whether it was a big or small matter, but there was just
one thing he didn't quite understand. He seemed to be doing everything well,
but it seemed that his relationship with Jian Shiwu as a couple remained
lukewarm, of course, it was probably the same for most married families.
The turning point came one rainy night, the
day he had just finished a meeting and received an unprecedented phone call
from Jian Shiwu, the person on the other end seemed to be a little drunk:
"Husband, can you come and pick me up?"
He is drunk.
That was Shen Cheng's first reaction.
It had sort of been a while since Jian
Shiwu had taken the initiative to call him, and he didn't even seem to have
heard Jian Shiwu call him husband for a long time.
Therefore, when he saw this call, even
though the secretary told him that he had a client to meet later, Shen Cheng
concluded after just a little thought, "Push it off, I have something to
do tonight."
The secretary was smart enough not to ask
more about the reason and just respectfully said, "Okay boss."
He had driven to that restaurant alone,
expecting it to be Jian Shiwu and his friends having a get-together, but when
he pushed open the room, he realized that there were quite a number of people
gathered there. It was because of this opportunity that he had the chance to
meet this group of colleagues, and to his somewhat surprise, the group was
equally slightly surprised when they saw him.
"This…who is this?"
"Sir, you are?"
"Got the wrong room?"
A man dressed in a suit had appeared here,
that powerful aura and handsome appearance, some people were born to give a
sense of unattainability. Moreover, the crowd felt that it was impossible to
climb into a relationship with him.
While the group of employees were doubt, in
the corner, a drowsy and drank-over-a-little wine Jian Shiwu gently raised his
hand, he said: "Here. "
Shen Cheng followed the voice and looked
over, and saw a drunken Jian.
Jian Shiwu’s temperament was usually
relatively easygoing, but today, perhaps because of drunkenness, he looked much
more free and unrestrained, with his face flushed.
Shen Cheng frowned inaudibly and walked
over, reaching out to take the cup away before speaking, "Don't drink
it."
Jian gave a light hum and burped, leaning
against him in a smooth manner.
The director beside him looked at Shen
Cheng with curiosity, always feeling as if he had seen this young man somewhere
before, so he enthusiastically asked, "Shiwu, who is this?"
Jian Shiwu was pointed out and, after a
moment's thought, replied, "Husband."
When the words came out, the other people
were shocked.
The drunkard was a little less coy, and
Shen Cheng was even more indifferent, as he calmly accepted the gaze of the
others, and opened his lips to the crowd to make a short introduction:
"Shen Cheng."
The people at the table were amazed by this
silent, yet apparently extraordinary man.
There was naturally gossip where there were
people, and as Shen Cheng pulled Jian Shiwu up and led the way to say goodbye,
the woman in the usher's seat did cast a curious glance as she spoke up and
inquired, "How long have you been married?"
Shen Cheng didn't expect an answer from the
drunkard and replied in a kindly manner, "Two years."
"Married at such a young age, so you
must be very much in love, have you been dating since college, how many years
have you been in courtship?" Another person picked up the conversation and
inquired.
Shen Cheng paused.
He pulled Jian Shiwu with one hand, and
picked up Jian Shiwu's jacket that had fallen on the chair on the other side.
The man was silent for a brief moment, and actually skipped the topic, not
answering, only saying to the director as he went out, "I'll take him
away."
His aura was so strong that the director
didn't even dare to say anything more.
Pulling the somewhat drunken man out the
door, but for some reason, Jian Shiwu, who was still a bit sober, also fell
silent after that question, or rather, when Shen Cheng chose to be silent, Jian
Shiwu's gaze began to dim down.
When he got into the car, Shen Cheng helped
him fasten his seatbelt but was refused by Jian Shiwu, who put his head down
and fastened it for himself while saying softly, "I can do it
myself."
Shen Cheng did not stop him, but said,
"How much did you drink."
"Not much."
"You look a bit drunk."
"I'm not drunk."
Shen Cheng was not stubborn with him,
today's Jian Shiwu looked a bit strange, probably because of the alcohol as
well, so he decided to go along with the person and not stimulate him.
However when the car began to start, the
person sitting beside him spoke, "Shen Cheng, have you ever liked
me?"
Shen Cheng's movements were halted for a
moment, he then started the engine, no extra expression on his face, but inside
he was not calm at all, he didn't know about liking and love.
Just like he couldn't answer the question
from the person in the box, he didn’t know how to answer Jian Shiwu.
Shen Cheng was not someone who avoided
problems, but this time, he unexpectedly did not look back, as if he did not
dare to look directly into Jian Shiwu's eyes: "Why are you asking
this."
Jian Shiwu's voice was soft : "Have
you ever been?"
Shen Cheng frowned inexplicably, and the
man opened his lips and said, "We are married, and I will take care of
you."
There was silence next to him, and there
seemed to be a slightly disappointed chuckle. Shen Cheng couldn't help looking
up at the mirror. From the reflection in the mirror, he saw Jian Shiwu huddled
in the car seat, and under the dim headlights, there seemed to be a pair of red
eyes.
After a while, Jian Shiwu said softly,
"Got it."
It was obviously a promise, but it
inexplicably made Shen Cheng feel a bit gloomh. This emotion was so strange
that even Shen Cheng didn't know what he was doing, what was he angry about, or
who was he angry with. He felt that maybe he should say something now, but when
he tried to open his mouth, but couldn't say anything.
Not knowing what motivated him, Shen Cheng
opened his lips: "Does it matter I like you or not?"
Jian Shiwu, who seemed to be drowsy next to
him, was stunned. In such silence, even Shen Cheng felt some remorse, that
sentence just now, perhaps it was better left unsaid.
After a brief hesitation, Jian Shiwu
finally said, "You don't have to try so hard."
The car arrived at the traffic lights. Shen
Cheng stopped the car, looked at him sideways, and met those red eyes, but Jian
Shiwu smiled, and with the strength of the wine, he said, "If it's really
not suitable, we can divorce."
"Piiiiii!"
The car behind kept urging the car in front
to start quickly, yet the car did not move for awhile as if it was possessed,
and the driver had lost his soul.
..........
It has been many days since that night, but
many times, Shen Cheng's ears still seem to ring with those words, even though
at that time he had subconsciously refused the offer, although it still seems
to be indifferent, but only he himself knows that his heart was not so calm.
After that day, although Jian Shiwu did not
mention the divorce matter again, but this matter remained a hidden bomb in
Shen Cheng's heart, he began to observe Jian Shiwu's daily life more
attentively.
Such as watching him and his new colleague
go to the restaurant after work together, the woman opposite chose the Western
restaurant, the woman smiled, not knowing that Jian Shiwu did not like Western
food at all.
Such as watching Jian Shiwu and a new
client talk business, the man also thought he was considerate enough to bring
Jian Shiwu coffee, not knowing at all that Jian Shiwu did not like to drink so
bitter cappuccino, he had a sweet tooth.
The more he watched, the more he realized
that he knew Jian Shiwu extraordinarily well, knew everything, knew more than
anyone else, no one could know Jian Shiwu better than he did, because this was
a boy he had watched grow up, was now his wife, and always will be.
.........
Shen Cheng's secretary had told him,
"To like someone is to want to take care of them."
Sitting in the living room of his home,
looking at Jian Shiwu who was chewing on a snack in his pajamas, Shen Cheng
slowly pondered; he liked Jian Shiwu. Only
that, this realization seemed to come a little late and he wanted to find a
proper time to tell his wife.
However, things never go in the direction
one wants them to.
Recently, there were some troublesome
things that gave him some headache, and they seemed to be related to his birth.
There were private detective figures
appearing in his life, the other party seemed not small in origin, and at the
moment did not dare to make any big moves, but he was not an amateur. Using
some forces to find out, Shen Cheng found this may be related to the Ji
company, and sent someone to investigate who.
It turned out to be the vice president of
Ji's, Donald.
Donald pressed on step by step and it made
him use all his energy to face him. The other party's bravado also provoked the
competitive spirit in his bones, and he was never afraid of a challenge, not
when he met a somewhat strong opponent.
The secretary said: "You may be
related to Ji's president Ji Yuanfeng, and Donald's purpose is to win over or
control you, but you should not be afraid. If you really recognize Ji Yuanfeng,
It will be possible to obtain Ji's inheritance, which will be a huge fortune at
that time, and Mr. Ji seems to have not learned about this situation yet, do
you want to negotiate?"
Shen Cheng sneered, "No need, I'm not
interested."
Everyone knows that property is not so easy to
inherit, getting involved in a wealthy family is equivalent to being involved
in a whirlpool, and the big cake that falls from the sky will kill people.
As he used all his mind to deal with the
affairs of country M, something happened to Jian's family. Jian Zicheng was
cheated while doing business with others and that his company may face the
possibility of bankruptcy. When he heard the news, he was still in country m.
When looking for a solution, he only
thought that Jian Zicheng's prideful temperament whould not accept his explicit
help, so he said to the secretary: "You go back to China first, and see
which company is going to buy them. Buy that company after, but don't be too
obvious."
At that time, he thought that he would
return to China in another ten days at most, and that he would then handle the
matter properly in person, first he had to deal with the Donald tangle at hand.
He was in a meeting the day he learned of
Jian Shiwu’s car accident. When his secretary called, he even thought for a
moment that he was joking, until the secretary said it again in a careful tone,
"Madam's car had an accident on the outer ring, it was raining so hard
that it hit the bridge."
Shen Cheng had never had a moment in his
life when his mind was as black and confused as when he received this phone
call, his heart felt like it had been struck hard, and he couldn't breathe for
awhile.
Shen Cheng's voice felt like it was
squeezed out as he inquired, "Jian....?”
The secretary didn't dare to breathe
heavily and only dared to say quickly, "The car, the car crashed down the
river, a rescue team had already gone to look for him, but it was raining too
much and after searching for a few more hours, they said..."
Even through the phone, the secretary could
feel the hostility in Shen Cheng's voice: "Keep looking."
The few short words came from the other end
of the phone, but the intense chill, cold and piercing, was enough to make
people's hearts tremble. When the phone was hung up, the secretary realized
that he was covered in a layer of cold sweat, as if he had turned around from
the gates of life.
He knew that Shen Cheng would be back soon,
but he didn't expect it to be so soon. He had unprecedentedly used the Ji's
private jet for the first time and when he appeared in the frosty dew, the
secretary was almost unable to recognize him, with his scarlet eyes and even
somewhat messy clothes, not the same as the mature and stable man he used to
be, as if he wouldn't be afraid even if the sky collapsed.
"boss......"
Shen Cheng spoke, his voice a little
hoarse: "Have you found it?"
The secretary shook his head gently, and he
too was about to cry: "The rain was too heavy, and the river was fast
yesterday, the car was salvaged, but strangely… no…no one was there."
In those few days, it felt as if Shen Cheng
had aged a lot.
It was a very strange thing that the body
was never found, the salvage rescue team was always there, and Shen Cheng was
always at the scene, but almost always to no avail.
The rescue
team searched for as long as Shen Cheng kept watch. He had not closed his eyes
for a long time, it was as if something was keeping him together and he just
couldn’t sleep.
When the secretary came to report, he said,
"Boss, it's been a week, the company still has some things for you to deal
with, do you want to go back?"
Shen Cheng said, "Bring it here and
I’ll deal with it here."
The secretary mustered up the courage to
say, "It's been a few days, why don't you go back and take a rest..."
As expected, before the words fell, he
received a somewhat harsh gaze from Shen Cheng, the bloodshot eyes were like a
harsh beast, making people's heart panic. He could only suppress the words in
his heart.
A bottle of water was sent over: "Then
you always need to drink some water and eat something, otherwise your body
won't hold up and you won't be able to keep watch here."
Shen Cheng didn't take the food in his
other hand, just took the water over and drank two sips, then instructed,
"On the company side you bring the documents and the computer, if anything
happens..."
Under the secretary's eyes, his voice grew
weaker and weaker as he spoke.
As
if sensing something, the man's eyes swept him with a fierce glance, and
eventually he couldn't resist passing out.
The secretary hurriedly folded his hands:
"I'm sorry boss, I didn't mean to, but you really can't stay up any
longer, just rest for awhile."
Then he turned his head to the driver,
"Go back to the flat."
The driver started the car familiarly and
left the riverside.
Everyone knew Shen Cheng's temper, even the
secretary was prepared to have himself executed when Shen Cheng woke up, but
what no one expected was that when Shen Cheng woke up, the person was
surprisingly calm, so calm that people felt it was abnormal.
The secretary cautiously said, "Boss,
I'm sorry."
Shen Cheng, however, only asked him,
"Have you found him?"
The secretary shook his head, in fact,
everyone knew in their hearts that it had been more than a week, and if they
couldn't find him, the person should be gone, but no one dared to say anything,
no one dared to stimulate Shen Cheng.
But the man who woke up seemed to have
suddenly calmed down. He got up, sat on the sofa in the room, looking at the
tea cups on the coffee table left by Jian Shiwu, and then below that, the snack
cabinet, where a lot of stock is usually hoarded, but this time, it was
actually empty.
Shen Cheng looked at it for a moment, the
corners of his mouth curled up into an almost ironic smile, "Were you so
angry?"
There was nothing left. He was so angry
that he wouldn't even let him have one last glance.
The secretary looked at Shen Cheng with
some trepidation as he mumbled and also showed such a smile. He couldn't help
but feel a little horrified, and even wondered if it would be better to make a
psychiatric appointment for Mr. Shen to see.
But very quickly, except for that day where
he acted strange, Shen Cheng seemed to have suddenly returned to normal. He set
up a funeral for Jian Shiwu. The Jian family did not have many people, so a few
members came. Next to him were two tombstones, Jian Zicheng and Zhen Meili’s
tombstones quietly stood in the cold wind, looking unusually ironic.
It was a bad day, with a light drizzle in
the sky. All afternoon, Shen Cheng sat in front of the tombstone not saying a
word. Jian Shiwu's tomb was very simple, except for the unusually deep and
conspicuous words on the stone monument, and there was a photograph on the
tombstone, in colour, of the young boy smiling radiantly and lovingly.
Seeing that it was about to get dark, the
secretary's lips moved and went up to ask: "Boss, it's time to go."
Shen Cheng sat there quietly, "You go
back."
The secretary hesitated as he said,
"Do you want to be here at night? This is a cemetery...not only will it be
cold after dark, but if you are alone, won't you be...scared?"
Shen Cheng finally reacted a little, he
looked up at the tombstone, his deep eyes gradually became deeper, as if he
thought of something, then the man's voice lowered and said in a faint voice:
"That night, how cold must he have been."
How scared he would have been.
There was a cold breeze blowing over and
the secretary shivered, he and Jian Shiwu didn't have much interaction so he
couldn't really appreciate Shen Cheng's grief too much, however, he could feel
the changes in Shen Cheng more directly. Before his wife's accident, Shen Cheng
was career minded, mature and stable, but after Jian Shiwu's accident, he
really felt how scary Shen Cheng was as a person.
After that day at the cemetery, this man
has changed. Before Shen Cheng was like a civil servant in general: a small
business, asking him from time to time what gifts boys like, what new candies
are available at the recent candy house, what the hell was that drama yesterday
about and why he could not understand Jian Shiwu’s mantra about it.
That time Shen Cheng although was so
serious, but because there was Jian Shiwu, there was just a sense in his body,
a that kind of fireworks made that made Shen Cheng real and humane, but the
current Shen Cheng, was like as if his life had been taken away as well.
The secretary knew that Shen Cheng was
regretting, too many more words he hadn't been able to say, and remorse for
things he hadn't done well, that this man carried a lot on his back, like a
heavy mountain weighing him down, and at one point he mustered the courage to
say, "I don't think Mr. Jian will blame you."
At those words, he seemed to see that the
protective shell that had been built up by Shen Cheng crack, the man lifted his
head to look at him, that kind of gaze was something he hadn't seen for a long
time, harsh.
He thought Shen Cheng might scold him,
would chastise him, in fact it would be good, this man had been suppressing it,
it would be good if he could burst out.
But no.
"Go and do your own thing." Shen
Cheng said.
There were no extra words, no extra
expressions, the afterglow of the dusk fell, but it was inexplicably sad, there
was no one who could save Shen Cheng, no one. Was the one who was gone
suffering, or was the one who was alive suffering a little more? Even he himself
did not have a clear answer.
...........
The situation remained the same, until the
arrival of one thing that brought a change; that is the black gold small VR
helmet.
A device developed by Shen Cheng for real
interaction on holographic networks. This device helped Shen enter the top 100
companies completely and become the leading presence in the electronic
information industry.
The secretary knew that Shen Cheng also had
an exclusive version of the black gold small helmet, he would log on to the
device every day and spend a night in it, the next day he would be in much
better spirits.
Who were the holographic characters in it
and what had Shen Cheng set up? He did not know.
But the device did save Shen Cheng's
precarious mental situation, but unfortunately, no one had the chance to find
out what exactly was programmed into his helmet until decades later, when Shen
Cheng passed away and the secretary found the little black and gold helmet
while rummaging through his belongings.
With curiosity, he put it on his head and
clicked on the start page. Before logging in, he thought, Shen Cheng would have
set a living wife to accompany him and reset a perfect marriage, but after the
page slowly restarted, what appeared in front of him was a school street.
He stood there as if he was automatically
brought into Shen Cheng's perspective and character. Then, he walked into a
class and saw, standing in front of the back seat, a boy, chubby but cute, who
seemed to be holding something in his hand, and upon seeing him, gave an
awkward and somewhat confused smile, and the love letter he was holding was
squeezed tightly as he stammered a little and explained, "I, I didn't
steal anything from you."
**THE END**
πππ This was so sad. I know they got their do-over but this SC killed me.
ReplyDeleteTHIS HURTS SOOOOOOO MUCCCCCCCCHHH MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOULDN'T HAVE READ THE EXTRASSSSS!!!! πππππππ
ReplyDeletethe one thing im very frustrated about the whole novel in general is that the poor communication among them.. whts wrong with just confessing if u like them???!!! whts wrong with actually saying what makes u upset instead of brewing the thoughts silently by urself and suffering in the process??!! its freakinggg frustrate me!!!!
ReplyDeleteanywayyy, all in all, its a great novel and good plot aside from what i mention aboveπ€
To be fair, Jian Shiwu did confess, many times. I think the real problem is they have very different understandings of what love and what marriage is. They don't know how to communicate because they have fundamentally different understandings of their relationship.
DeleteShen Cheng doesn't understand how a proper relationship because he was raised in a broken home and grew up a sa social outcast, so he had no way of learning. Meanwhile, Jian Shiwu doesn't understand Shen Cheng at all. He only wants to be loved, but he doesn't realize that She Cheng needs to be taught how to love. Its just a tragedy all around
If there's no note that this extra isn't related to main story, the pain would be killing me. πππ the do over is not only sheng's fantasy and the past is present. πππ
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DeleteTHAT ACTUALLY WOULD MAKE IT EVEN MORE SAD THOUGH, thank god it wasnt related to the main story :)
DeleteΠΠ°Π°Π° Π·Π°ΡΠ΅ΠΌ???? Π― ΡΡΠ΄Π°Ρ
ReplyDeleteEven with the author's note, my heart still was reaped apart after reading the extras! ππππππ
ReplyDeleteOh, my heart is hurt after read this chapter, so sad πππ
ReplyDeleteFuuck off
ReplyDeleteOh my God. What the heck is this ending? My little heart is broken. π
ReplyDeleteYou have absolutely no idea how many time I had to pause to take a breather and mentally prepared myself, but no matter how much I've prepared, my heart is hurting SO BADLY. I'll try to forget this extra had ever existed and only keep the author's note in mind.
ReplyDeleteBut that aside, I feel like the ending is too abrupt, where's the part JSW told SC the truth? Where's the part they got married and both are smiling happily in the picture and then the famous THE END? I guess you can say I'm a little dissatisfied with the ending but CAN YOU BLAME ME? I WANT IT TO END ON A HAPPY NOTE NOT THE EXTRA ABSOLUTELY DESTROYING ME
Omg this so painful π
ReplyDeleteTurn out shen cheng does love shiwu, I would rather believe they go back to the past than it was a virtual world, the emotions too real for it to be ai!!
Ahhh why did I read the extra and now I am crying at 2 am it's do sad thank God it's extras not the main story π I am so sad right now shen Chen and jian didn't deserve this in their past lives ππ
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