Chapter 5
Was he here to tell her some good news, for example, he was going to marry his Ai Qing, but there was no need to tell her specifically, and she really didn't care at all.
Xiao Qi's eyes fell on her, staring for a long time. Meng Yu was surprised, she didn't understand his gaze, and he would never look at her with such concentrated eyes.
"What do you want?"
Xiao Qi felt a little complicated.
In fact, at the beginning, Xiao Qi didn't feel much after breaking up with Meng Yu. Over the years, he had become accustomed to handling everything calmly.
He still went to work on time and left on time every day; his life didn't not seem to be affected.
He started to realize the problem two months after the breakup. When he returned home that day, he saw a familiar figure flashing past the bedroom door as soon as he opened the door.
That bedroom was the one she used to live in when she came.
He was stunned right away, and almost without thinking, his body drove him to walk quickly over, but there was nothing in the room. It was an empty room, everything inside was neatly arranged. Since she left, no one had lived here, the room was too clean and tidy, and there were no traces of her staying.
She was not here at all, and the shadow that flashed before his eyes was just his illusion.
It was the beginning of the night, the bustling traffic outside the window illuminated the entire city. He sat on the bed blankly, a strange feeling of loneliness suddenly appeared in his heart.
This sense of loneliness was inexplicable. He thought he had been accustomed to being alone for so many years after his parents passed away, but now sitting alone on the small bed where she had slept, he felt depressed and uncomfortable in his heart.
This feeling lasted for a long time. During this time, Ai Qing brought Huan Huan over to accompany him. Before, he felt that being with them made him feel warm and happy, but now, even though there was laughter at home, the sense of loneliness still lingered in his heart, and he always felt that something was missing.
It was strange that he had never missed her so much before. Since seeing the illusion that day, he always thought of her from time to time. Even when they were together, he rarely thought of her.
Remembering the time that she suddenly jumped out to frighten him, then she asked him with a smile, "Do you miss me?"
Or the time she wore a newly bought dress and circled around him, "Do you feel lucky to have such a beautiful girlfriend?"
He still remembered that every time she asked, he always turned his head away in silence. In the past, even if he was a cold person, he would still be shocked by her beauty that his heartbeat would miss half a beat.
She was always so lively and cheerful, and her smile seemed to be able to melt snow and ice.
He not just missed her often, but he often dreamed of her, but after waking up from the dream, there was the feeling of loss. She was no longer there, and she had already broken up with him.
After another five months, she still had not contacted him. She had never been away from him for such a long time. When they were together, although she would not harass him on the phone every day, she would always call him once a couple days.
He began to find that he couldn't get used to the life in which she was there. The girl named Meng Yu always liked to be around him. She always smiled at him. She always liked to hold her face and stare blankly at him while he was doing things.
But now, these daily scenes had not appeared for five months.
He began to panic. He finally couldn't help but dial her number. It was rare for him to call her, but unexpectedly, the line was always busy. Then he realized that she had blocked his number. He tried to contact her with another communication softwares, but it still shocked him. She deleted all his numbers. He tried to add her as a friend, but there was no response.
This sense of panic was getting stronger and stronger.
He couldn't understand why this happened. He had never thought that her leaving would leave him feeling so at a loss.
When she said that she wanted to break up with him five months ago, he thought that she would come back by herself eventually. He was used to being chased by her. In his perception, Meng Yu could not do without him.
But this time, it seemed like she was serious.
This sense of panic brought a lot of sequelae. For example, he often made common sense mistakes at work. For example, he would call out Meng Yu's name unconsciously when he had a meal with Ai Qing. For example, he started to suffer from insomnia, especially during the nights he dreamed her, he would not be able to fall asleep afterword.
He began to try to find her, but she moved, and he didn’t know where she went. Later, he found out the address of her new home after inquiring through various channels. He went to her new home to find her several times but she was not there. Later he heard that she had gone on a trip, and the location was uncertain, so he still couldn't find her.
During this period, he would come to her place every weekend, knock on her door, every time he returned in disappointment, until yesterday he got the news of her return, he couldn’t wait to buy the ticket early this morning and flew back to Yancheng, but when he knocked on her door, no one answered. So he waited for her in the underground garage.
He had been waiting for a long time before finally seeing her appear.
He hadn't seen her for more than a year. Her hair was longer now. Other than that, she didn't seem to have changed. She was still that beautiful, her figure was still so slim, and her complexion was neither happy nor sad. She didn’t look like a girl who had broken up with her boyfriend.
But when he thought about it carefully, it had been more than a year since they had broken up. More than a year was enough to calm many things. However, after more than a year, he was still unable to calm down his feelings for her. On the contrary, the longer she left him, the more he missed her, but obviously she was not like him.
Her calmness made him a little angry, but the joy of seeing her again finally overwhelmed everything. He hurriedly pushed the door and got out of the car, feeling a little nervous for a while, and he didn't call her name until she was about to get on the elevator.
She turned her head to look at him. He kept paying attention to her expression. She didn't show any joy when she saw him again. She looked so calm, and she asked him why he came here.
Why he came here, of course, it was to find her.
He had never lowered himself in front of her, and he had never taken the initiative to come to her. He was a little uncomfortable, but after all he really wanted her to return to him.
So he was silent for a while before he said, "I'm sorry, I didn’t treat you well before. It was me who made you feel insecure. Elder Sister Ai Qing and I are not what you thought we are. I was able to go to school because of their family's funding. Now she is in trouble, I should help her, this is what I owe her."
"Oh?" Meng Yu said mockingly, "You can repay her in many ways. You don't need to do everything yourself, and behave like the father of her daughter, right? It’s not enough to just buy a house for her and pay for her daughter’s tuition fee? Why do you have to take her to the company and bring her home? I tried to understand you, but have you ever tried to understand me? I am not as kind as you, Xiao Qi, you can accept other people’s kid calling you father, I can’t.”
Since she had already broken up with him, she didn’t need to think that much. She would just say whatever that made her unhappy. She had already guessed what his reply would be. It was either, “Meng Yu. she was just a kid.” or, “Meng Yu, don’t be so unreasonable.” No matter what, he would definitely want her to give in.
Meng Yu suddenly felt very annoyed and didn't want to hear his answer at all.
She was about to turn around and leave, but she suddenly heard him say, "I’m sorry that I didn’t handle it well and made you sad. Don't worry, you won't hear Huan Huan calling me father again in the future."
She stopped and suddenly looked at him. Did she hear it wrong? Dd Xiao Qi just say that he would change because of her?
But, what was the use of it? It was all over.
She shook her head, her face didn't have any changes, and her voice was extremely calm,"Xiao Qi, there is no future for us, we are over."
Meng Yu got on the elevator, but before the elevator closed, Xiao Qi walked over and squeezed in forcefully. In the elevator, he stood by her and looked at her, meeting her puzzled gaze. He said to her, "I’m sorry for ignoring you in the past, I will make up for it."
Meng Yu "..."
‘Make up?’ She could believe that she actually heard these words coming from Xiao Qi's mouth. For so many years that she was by his side, his indifference, his non-response, and his coldness let her down again and again. Why did he only think about making up now? He didn't want to look at her when she loved him the most, and only wanted to make up when she was about to forget him. Wasn't it a bit too late? She had already lost her hope.
"No, it's over. You don't need to make up for it. Didn't you agree to the breakup last time? Now that you agree, why don't we just let it go?"
Xiao Qi didn't say anything. He just watched her quietly with deep and complicated eyes. It seemed like he had a thousand words that he wanted to say to her. She even felt that there was a kind of full and deep affection in his eyes, which he had never shown in front of her.
There was silence in the elevator, and it took a while before he finally said, "If I don't do anything, I'm afraid I will regret it."
Meng Yu suddenly wanted to laugh when she heard these words. She really didn’t expect Xiao Qi to look at her with such affectionate eyes one day, and she never thought that Xiao Qi would say that he would make up for her. He was always cold, no matter how much she loved her, he still didn't care about it.
Now she finally made up her mind to leave him, but he ran to tell her that he wanted to make up for her.
What was the point?
It was so ridiculous!
Besides... She was going to marry someone else.
Just as the elevator door opened, Meng Yu walked out with a calm expression on her face and said, "It's too late, Xiao Qi, it's impossible for me to get back to you again in this life."
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I think I would be more pissed that you were able to express all this before but chose not to. Because you took my love for granted. Because I let you think that was ok. All of it would piss me off.
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