Lu Nian's first reaction was that she should never be allowed him to go to the thirteenth middle school.
She had a hunch that if Qin Si could not be successfully stopped this time, then his fate would still be exactly the same as the original book. A life of loneliness, no relatives and no love, living for revenge, increasingly paranoid and gloomy, and finally died before the age of twenty-nine.
She doesn't know how much plot she can change, but for now, she wants to do her best to get him back on track from crooked roads.
So, she forcibly pretended that she didn’t understand, “Why don’t you go to the Affiliated middle school? Everyone is a direct promotion? The attached middle school is really good...” She said a lot of good things about the affiliated middle school, and then emphasized the importance of the teacher.
Says, "The middle school teacher is really important in the future! No matter how smart I am, I will definitely not be as good as a teacher for self-study."
The boy was quiet, "Yeah."
Lu Nian was thirsty after talking, "..." What do you mean? ? ? ?
Qin Si casually said, "The tuition is too expensive."
Lu Nian's voice increased, "You don't have to worry about that!"
"If you think you owe money to my family, you can write it down. It will be fine in the future." She ran into the boy's sight but the boy looked away. She pitifully twitched her nose, and her voice became quieter, "If you don't want to borrow money from my family, you can ask me to borrow it, of course, the kind that pays interest, I will ask you for debt collection in the future."
Qin Si is silent. He didn't know what to say.
Learning has always been easy for him, but it’s not right to say that it doesn’t take any effort. For him, learning is very important, so he will not give up learning wherever he goes.
However, he doesn't want to be in the Lu family anymore. He has been thinking a lot these days. From very early on, when he suffered that kind of torture and humiliation in the Lu family, every cell in his body was clamoring and told him to leave Lu as soon as possible. With one day, he will double what those people have done to him.
But when there was such an opportunity, he even dared to hesitate.
Obviously, he could go so far, and he could broke the contact with the Lu family and her since then.
He hated himself like this, but he couldn't control it. The two emotions were torn apart all day long, torturing him so that he couldn't sleep at night, and he fell into a deep self-hatred.
Qin Si remained silent.
Lu Nian knew that it was a sign that he did not intend to change his mind. Qin Si seemed lonely and inaccessible, but he was actually unexpectedly honest in front of her, and he would hardly lie about this kind of thing.
She was a little anxious and asked directly, "If you don't report to the attached middle school, where do you want to report?"
Qin Si still didn't answer.
She said a little outrageously, "Okay, I will follow you wherever you report when the time comes. Anyway, I am a year later than you." She didn't believe that he would report to those punk middle schools again.
The boy stood still and said , "Are you kidding?" Lu Nian, "Have I told you a lie? If you don't report to the attached middle school, I will follow you."
She is serious, and is pushing him and pushing him to nothing. He can retreat, only the way she gave is left.
The boy's eyelashes trembled, and he looked at her with a cold tone, "Are you threatening me? You are the eldest lady, of course, you can be willful, wherever you want to go. Just what do you think this can threaten me? Would I care? "
Lu Nian was hurt by his words, her face turned pale.
After so long, she thought that she and Qin Si could at least be regarded as friends. Unexpectedly, in his eyes, is she the same as when she first met? At that time, she could tolerate such cold and mocking words, but now, she felt like she had been stabbed by some sharp piercing.
The moment he blurted it out, Qin Si regretted it.
But during this time, the kind of unprovoked irritability and confusion constrained him, making him unable to say any words to subdue or regret.
He had no father or mother, no relatives or friends since he was a child, and he didn't know how to approach people, and he didn't know how to pick up the spikes on his body.
At this moment, it is not clear whether it was Lu Nian or Qin Si's face that was whiter. He moved his lips, and silently uttered a few syllables, but never said anything, before she turned her head in silence and ran away.
For the first time, they separate unhappy.
The graduation exam is in June and the volunteer list is reported in May. For the junior high school, many of them are decided by the parents alone. The children have no right to speak. However, for Qin Si, the Lu family will not bother at all. It is up to Qin Si to report wherever he wants to. He decides for himself.
He completed the form and handed it in silently, surprisingly without any hesitation.
The last side she saw, the way she spoke, and the way she finally ran away, with tearful eyes lingering in front of him.
He regretted it.
For the first time in his life, Qin Si regretted it. He couldn't take back what he said. He didn't want to see her like that. He grew up without a father and mother. He was beaten and insulted as a child, starved, and suffered. Frozen... Grinding a heart cold and hard, but those tortures are not like those eyes, which can make him so uncomfortable.
When Qin Si filled out the list, he originally thought that she was forcing him.
However, when he finished writing the last word, he found sadly that his writing was so smooth that his heart violated his will and pulled him on a path that could not be turned back.
The lower grades were on vacation, and when Lu Nian went to school to collect the final exam transcripts, she passed this graduation red list. She slowed down and finally stood in front of the red list. She saw his name on the admission list at a glance. Qin Si's name is very high, and the admission is Ancheng High School.
She moved her eyelashes, said nothing, and left as she came.
But then, that summer, two more things happened.
Because of the expansion of the campus, from that year onwards, Ancheng Affiliated Middle School's primary and secondary schools began to be officially separated. The primary school stayed far away, while the junior high school moved to a new campus about an hour's drive from the original campus.
"I will stay." Qin Si said to her before leaving.
He had never taken the initiative to find her. The only thing he said was this sentence. It was not a request for consultation, it was more like a notice.
Lu Nian didn't say anything, and he did the same. After saying that , he left far away.
The lodging, leaving Lu's house, the same two-thirds of the trajectory as in the original book, but the school he went to has changed.
So is it changed or not?
Lu Nian thought a little confused.
The attic was empty.
Sometimes when Lu Nian was walking in the garden, she could see the dark curtain hidden above it, and he would never open it again.
This year, she never saw Qin Si again.
is this the end of their childhood together :(
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